“Order My Steps” is one of my all time favorite gospel songs. In the church that I grew up in, the lady who would sing this song could sing it like it was nobody’s business! Back then I really liked the song because the soloist sure could sing it, the musicians were on point and the choir was doing their thing! What I remember most about hearing this song back then is that my mother would always shout. I mean as soon as the keyboardist would start playing the intro, she would already start getting worked up. However, with each year that passes and the more I experience in life, this song hits my spirit just a little bit differently.
I was recently reminded of this song and all the good feels that come with it. It probably takes me about 45 minutes to an hour to get to work everyday and I usually have my music playing in the background. Sometimes I’m singing along and sometimes it just ends up being background noise as my mind wonders to the tasks I have to complete that day. A few mornings ago, it was the latter. I had a lot on my mind and I was consumed with all of the things that I would need to do, but suddenly I realized the song was playing. I must have looked crazy to the other cars passing by because I was really singing that song kind of hard, Lol!
And as the playlist continued after that song, I kept focusing on the previous one. “Order My Steps.” My mind traveled back to sitting in the church next to my mother, hearing the intro and thinking to myself, “Here we go, she’s about to start shouting.” Lol! Remembering how an usher or another woman in the church would come stand next to her and fan her with those old church fans and then the next thing you knew, they BOTH were shouting. I giggled about it then, but now pray to make it to that place where my mother was back then because I know (or I think I know) why that particular song would take her there.
You see, I believe that my mother made the lyrics to this song her personal plea to her Lord and Savior. She had a desire to walk her life out the very way God intended her to. I believe that she was so desperate for God to be in control of her life that she didn’t hold anything back when she would sing this song. She had experienced the presence of God and her faith was strengthening. Her relationship with God was deepening. Her life was changing. She was committed and she was all in.
This song is all about committing yourself and your entire life to Christ. Setting aside your fleshly desires to live your life according to his will. Committing EVERYTHING – your mind, body and soul to the one who sacrificed himself on the cross. I imagine that she was saying to God in that moment, that if he would take control of her life (every area) then she would go wherever he would lead her and she would do whatever he commissioned her to do.
As I listened to this song the other day, I found myself crying out to God and asking him to show me his will for my life. Take control over my thoughts and the words that I speak. Don’t let me step outside of whatever his will is for my life. Help me to be a living sacrifice. Give me the strength to walk the walk and talk the talk. Give my heart a new song and show me how to praise him. Show me how to bless his name without fear or shame and help me to trust him when the world is changing and the ground is shaking, knowing that if I stand on his word, I am standing on solid ground.
When I listen to this song, I feel a sense of desperation. I imagine a person on their knees, eyes fixed above, hands outstretched and tears streaming down their face. Maybe they are physically shouting, or maybe their spirit is so vexed that they can’t speak, but their heart is crying out, “LORD, HAVE YOUR WAY WITH ME!” They’re at the place where my mother was. They’re at the place where God wants us all to be – a place of complete and total desperation for him. So desperate, that we’re willing to submit our everything to him.
The truth is, sometimes I get in my own way. I really want to have control of everything in my life. I create my own agendas and my own plans and I try to walk them out the way I envision them. But God has surely stopped me in my tracks just as quickly as I’ve taken off running. Lol! With a gentle voice (sometimes stern if I”m hard headed) he lets me know that I’m not on the path that he’s set for me. He lets me know that I’m not committed. He redirects my steps and set me back on the right path.
Isn’t it amazing that God cares for us so much that he has orchestrated every step of our lives to lead us to the destiny that he has specifically designed for us? All we have to do is trust him as he guides our feet. Trust him when he says don’t say that, don’t do that or don’t go down that road. Trusting him means obeying him and there are so many blessings in obedience. And yes, I know, obedience isn’t easy and it is a sacrifice, but what has disobedience ever brought us other than consequences, pain and sorrow.
I encourage you to trust God enough today to say, “Lord, order my steps!” And then I encourage you to allow him to do it. Trust him even though the path may not look like what you thought it would. Trust him even if he leads you away from the friendships or relationships that you thought were for you. Trust him even if where he leads you is unfamiliar and/or uncomfortable. His plan for you is just that… His plan! Trust in it! Your path has already been prepared and your steps are ordered.
Psalm 37:23-24 “The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.”